I just heated up a glass of Mystic. Hot things seem to make my throat and stuff feel slightly better for a while...I've never done that with this before though.
(Takes a sip) Mmm, it's like tea...(another bigger sip)..only it tastes good.
I have no control over my own body tempurature..or these fits of coughing that don't actually cough UP anything..I just feel this constant reflexive need to cough. And every time I do it makes both my throat and head flare in pain...and no matter what I do, I always feel like total crap again in a little while. I can't turn my head quickly, or move my eyes too fast. I can't move ANYthing very fast. I'm weak and I hurt. I don't know when I'm hungry or tired, it just drowns out all of those sensory thingers that usually do that for me. I'm useless for doing just about anything. This is the first time I've gotten fed up enough to make myself write this page..and I'm suffering for it. I don't know WHEN I'll feel okay enough to finally sample off those ren and stimpy clips I taped. To do that I not only have to stay in this chair most of the time (in order to resolve the screen clear enough to see like..file names and stuff like that), I also have to stand long enough to hook the vcr back up to the switcher box. I almost didn't make it standing all the way through that last shower I took a day..or...however long ago that was. And then while I'm recording, I'll have to look back and forth at the computer and the tv....they're like 6 feet apart. That would make my head feel like a thunder-clap. And I'm just not ready to do that.
I'll probably take this page off my site when I'm better...if I ever do get better. Because I probably don't know what I'm saying and am just..frooblin all over the place. Maybe not though. You never know. I might just leave it. Either because I think it's cool (heh), I forget it's there, or I die.
Ughhhh...I don't know what keeps happening. It keeps relapsing over and over again. I'm up for a little while, and then I'm knocked on my ass again. I went to a doctor..well, actually I've been to two, but the last one said that I just need to give my body time to fight off the nasty germs..but it's gotten worse again. And as far as I can tell, I feel just as much like crap (if not more) than I did the first week I had it.... I think I feel worse now.. But that could be something else too. But anyway, it's just horrible. And I don't know what it is. At this point it could be any number of things. And some people think that it IS several things that are attacking me at once..and in succession.
(Well, I didn't die..yet. So you can go on to recovering)